I haven’t been posting for a while because I’m still not sure why I’m posting and that gets in the way of writing whatever comes to mind. For this brief installment I have two thoughts inspired by a gap of two weeks in which we had some regular sex but couldn’t get high and blow the roof off the house.
Thought one. It’s good to take the pressure off, sometimes. When we came back from the 2-week hiatus I didn’t want all the pressure to land on one day, and we had an opportunity to have a quick evening on a Thursday night, provided we got to bed not TOO late, followed by a more serious endeavor on Saturday night. The quickie on Thursday was great. I could not contain myself and came a lot faster than usual, and neither of us had had coffee so we fell asleep pretty shortly afterward. She probably had max 30 orgasms, maybe only 25, and we fell asleep by 1:30. Then woke up at 2:30 to turn the lights out and get back in our sleepwear :-). All this meant last night, the Saturday session, could just be easier. I didn’t feel pressure to perform. And oh my gosh, it was a good time to cut loose. She gave me a super-hot blowjob; three times I tried to pull away saying she was going to make me explode if she kept going, but she kept leaning forward to get more and I gave in. Biggest orgasm of my life. I managed to keep most but not all of it off of her.
Thought two. It isn’t bad to let the desire pile up for a while. And knowing you’re going to have mind-blowing sex every weekend can kind of take some of the excitement away, perhaps. Surprises are good and delayed gratification can be good. As far as I know there’s still no pill for desire?
Side note: it occurs to me that I’m writing like this is a private journal, not expecting anyone else would ever read it but rather just recording thoughts as I have them so I can compare later, in 20 years or whatever, and think about how I’ve changed, should have changed, or should not have changed. Maybe someone else will see it, maybe not. So why on a public blog site? I think the reason is this is now more preservable than any other way of writing. We should have a journaling business that makes this easy and promises permanence. E.g. do it in open source software, some kind of static HTML generator, so we know it’s open, portable, etc. 99 cents a month. It’s an idea.