Highway hypnosis has always kind of fascinated me. I used to get it pretty bad, on long, boring drives. Now I just fall asleep.
Why do I mention this? Because I get a version of it while eating my wife’s pussy, sometimes. If I’m down there for a long time, and especially when it’s really late and I’ve already finished once or more, I can drift. I tend to feel guilty about this, you know, just that I should really be in the moment. It’s not just that I’m spacing, I’m usually wrapped around some other issue in my mind–work, how I treated someone earlier that day, etc. My mind is wandering, and that feels a little rude, basically, and like I’m not making the most of the moment. But this time I noticed something. Whenever I snap out of it and come back to the present, she’s going out of her mind. That is, whatever my body and subconscious mind are doing while I’m not paying attention, it’s working for her.
This probably means a couple things. Like
a) I’ve done this so much for so long that the routine things I do, without even thinking, get her off.
b) I wake up when she goes nuts.
I.e., I don’t think it means that she’s going nuts the whole time my mind’s wandering. I think she goes through the normal phases of arousal at around her normal pace (which is typically about once a minute, though cf. Units of orgasm), and I just happen to tune back in when she’s making a lot of noise and gyrating a lot.
The real question, though is
c) Maybe being disconnected emotionally makes it better in some way?
Right? I wonder, anyway. Sex for her is very mechanical, at least relative to what it’s like for me. It helps that she loves me and finds me hot, but ultimately applying the right kinds of pressure and motion to the right places is going to get her off. Often, when I’m fully engaged, as in not just my body but also my mind, it works even better. Telling stories, for example: we still don’t quite understand it, but it can turn her on. But I can also shut her down, by telling a story she doesn’t like, for one thing, but also because of the creeping doubts I’ll suffer from. “She’s not really enjoying this” or “Why am I spanking her, again?” for example. Thoughts like that shut me down, and she feels it and gets a little shut down, too. So it’s totally plausible that my mind being disengaged can actually be better–my body is doing all the mechanical things right, and my mind is not interfering.
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